Sleeping With Sirens - All My Heart

i fucking love kellin quinn.

cross fingers

i am so sleepy and tired but i still want to update my blog because i feel like i have to throw out this feeling here and no where else. no where else but here. telling someone won't make a difference either because some people may just agree with what you're feeling or just make you feel like you're wrong in some ways. in any way..

i'm blogging anything that is in my mind. i really have no idea what it is but i'm just letting my fingers dance on this keyboard and let my mind be the radio that has no ending. like it goes on and on and on with sorts of different things. i feel very disappointed right now but i'm trying not to let it overwhelm me.. and you guys know what? there's a question that still remains me till right now. till the date 17th december 2012. for years i've been asking myself why our days that are so filled with non-stop laughters, etc ends with a fucking frown, etc. the question remains.

i hope that one day, someone or anyone will be able to answer me that question. that question that has been inside my mind for years. whatever problem that i have now doesn't matter to me but what i feel matters the most. of course, sadness is the last thing i ever want in my life but life isn't that fair to let me enjoy that one feeling i can never ask for anymore and let sadness be the last part in my life. but sometimes having a balance of different kinds of feelings has the pros and cons. though i can never list it but i bet anyone can think of the pros and cons themselves.

sigh i'm very down right now and this blog post isn't really what i wanted to do. i wanted to blog about something fun so that when i read it back later, i won't feel miserable and think about the problem now because seriously i think it's too early for this (referring to the problem i'm dealing with right now). i know i'm not fair because i'm always asking for more but isn't asking for more is what everyone wants? yes. everyone wants more than what they have. agree? well don't deny it because i also agree i'm always asking for more. any human isn't satisfied with what they have. they always want more.

well what else can i say? i still have to face the music. nothing will change. i'll accept what he wants to do for his family because i truly respect what he's doing. at least he's not doing it for himself. he's doing it for a good cause and i understand that. maybe i still can't accept that his presence will be no longer with me because he'll stop being my professional and oh so awesome photographer. he'll stop dancing.. with me. stop having fun.. with me. i won't live a happy day hearing this news but i'll be fine as soon as i can ever be. i'll miss him a lot because things won't be like it used to be as holidays are going to crack my mood up and school will start soon. sigh.. not a good sign at all..

hujan panas=hot rain?

went sentosa yesterday. the boys had fun playing beach takraw while i had fun watching them do all sorts of tricks & jokes. it was a sunny day but there was a drizzle. not a constant one. whatever it is, december isn't a perfect month for a beach outdoor activity..

ripped bleached

i bleached my freaking hair though i already have highlights that i did at the salon so now my hair is like copper plus bleaced highlights. wtf was i thinking today for the whole day? i've been doing weird things lately

sunny thursday

spent my thursday at ecp with them. bapak went fishing as usual. he didn't have to accompany me skate all the way till the end as fyque, ika & didi was at ecp so we went skating today. i really like hirzi's inline skates because it's nice and it's orange=my favourite colour. i'm really really exhausted so i think i'm gonna shut down my laptop & maybe watch television or listen to music until i fall asleep because i'm going to ecp again tomorrow=need to wake up early. i enjoyed the weather today cause it was sunny! a perfect weather for a rollerblading session. i hope the weather tomorrow is fine for another rollerblading session. enjoyed my thursday with them too. they're funny & outgoing and of course fyque is like my best man, ever. i really enjoyed my thursday & i wasn't satisfied. i'm always not satisfied. sigh. have a good day ahead guys cause tomorrow's friday! (haha). bye

goodnight lullaby

going to sleep in awhile. i'm fucking sleepy. just gonna do a short update only. goodnight guys, bye

the truth

spent my day with fiq today. (i really don't know how to continue hahaha. my brain instantly wants to shut down but i won't just end my entry by saying "spent my day with fiq today" and fullstop right? hahaha). had lunch with him at B.K and then we went to take a walk to anywhere that has led us just now. the next moment, we were sitting down on some bench and he started talking about some serious issues and i really can't hold my laughter so i had to laugh for a moment. kental. now i'm home talking to some people on the social network. done updating my blog and now i shall disappear and do my own stuff and update again the next time..

yes. sometimes i do wish i can disappear from here and go to somewhere peaceful. maybe jupiter.. maybe the moon.. or maybe some other isolated island or empty planet where there's no aliens or human beings living on it. goodnight and bye

missing you endlessly

i absolutely have no idea that we would become this close when i first saw you during chingay practice. thank God i met someone like you. i didn't know i would be so comfortable around you. it's like we can always relate to each other in so many ways. i still have more to discover about you. it's so fast right? i mean, we almost know each other for a year. wait, a couple of months more to a year. can't wait to celebrate our birthday together next year! miss your hugs already! i'm glad that i'm having so much fun around you. i mean, i'm always laughing whenever i'm with you. all my worries are like washed away whenever i'm with you. it's like you're the waves and it washes off my worries that are written on the sand..

okay.. so where do i start now? hm. i'm late today. don't feel like blogging. don't know what's holding me.. again! i suck for not being able to control my emotions. muhd azree is making me restless again. like.. the tweet that says the smell of my perfume is still on his jacket. i mean, it's so hard for me to get over and done with him if he keeps reminding me of stuff that has a relation between us. okay syairah, control your emotions. not gonna blog any further. don't feel like blogging about yesterday. my day totally suckass. november can suck it up cause december is coming fast. i hope it will be a better month for me. today is the 1 year 1 month! sigh have a good day ahead guys! bye

breaking dawn

so basically, breaking dawn was beyond amazing. i would rate it.. 11/10. i'm gonna watch it again. i just can't get enough of it, i swear. the situation lately sucks. though it has been a hectic week for me, i'm trying to cope with the situation i am facing now. this.. sucks, a lot. i might say i have been crippled by love and i mean it figuratively okay. i know this isn't an alarming news but yeah.. it's a thing where girls usually get. i mean it's normal to get this crippled by love disease or breakdown or heartache disease. though i know i'm suffering from heartbreaks, i know i can pull this off. i know i'll be fine. okay lets get over and done with it. i'm trying to keep myself busy these days so that i can eventually forget muhd azree.

i didn't enjoy my day today. i don't know why but everytime my brain tells me to go out and have fun, my heart tells me to pull over and stay at home. heart over mind. i really don't know what is stopping me these days. maybe the weather, maybe the people. maybe the money or maybe my total laziness. i really don't know what's the real answer to it but it can be any reason that i can find. so i sat at home today, fried some instant prata (well actually only 1 piece) and ate it with sugar because there's no gravy. it's so pathetic i mean there's no food at home but thank God some instant prata became the savior (savior not from danger or harm but from hunger and lack of cooking knowledge. hehe not really lah :p). so i had the most 'bopian' situation in my life just now. how i wish i can spend the whole day in happiness not from all this stuff. idk what stuff basically.

okay i'll update if i have the time again. it sucks now that lam sold the camera that we had put our hearts and money in it to get that freaking dslr and now he sold it! fuck him fuck it fuck everything. now i'm left with my normal canon camera that will always make me look like i'm freaking ugly but now i really don't care because whatever happens, happens.. though deep in my heart i know things are going out of the way, i always tell myself to always.. smile

successful attempt?

so hows my attempt in doing this? most of my friend says it looks realistic and i hope it is cause if it is, i am able to convince people this is real! LOL. i hope this contribution leads to a success for the RCY! having test tomorrow. if i pass, i'll be a certified first aid-er for now and i can save people's live, insyAllah. wish me luck! everything has been fine, alhamdulilah and the SFA isn't that bad. i manage to attend the SFA training to becoming a first aid-er. kudos to myself! okay that's all the update that i have for now. have a goodnight, rest well guys! and bye

"just like cooking, you have all the ingredients but it's just that you have to use your own skills and make something nice out of it"

great weather

it rained again and i was sulking in the car as usual.. about the weather. i know i can do nothing to stop the rain. so i faced my fate today. i thought it would prolly rain the whole day but then when we reached ecp, the bad weather turned over a new leaf. the day turned out great. time to go sleep soon because i'm really exhausted goodnight, bye

rainy weather

sometimes i hate the rainy weather because whenever i have something beneficial to do, it all pours down. sometimes i ask myself why do i keep praying everything will be fine but reality is, it won't happen. though i know the chance of it happening is very little, i still pray that everything will have it's way through. i didn't know what hit me today in the train but i badly wanted to play roller blades. so i punched my phone keypad button and waited for a yes. there came the yes. got home and changed to something that would look suitable for a rollerblading day and got into the car. as we passed by MBS, the weather started to disapprove whatever plans i have had on my mind..

i cancelled the thought of rollerblading but deep in my heart i badly badly want to skate again. i took bapak's bicycle and went cycling off on my own. wondering about some things. looking at all the happy family together. soon came the pour down. quickly cycled back to the jetty and went to take my roller blades at abah's house. lucky me. don't need to get a new pair. in the end, i still got the chance to go rollerblading. can't say how it went but it all went the way i wanted it to be although it wasn't a good day. going to roller blade again tomorrow. hope it won't rain. i want a hot sunny weather tomorrow! have a good day ahead guys. goodnight, bye

ignoring

the reason i'm ignoring you is because..

1. you exaggerate a lot

2. you are straightforward but it's rude

3. your remarks are just unvalid

and i can prolly list more than all of this but i just don't want to. you just have a lot of crap to tell me and i don't need to know because i'm wasting my time. if you want to be my friend, you have to be sincere. i don't want to be known for a friend who.. well i won't say it but it's just negative. sometimes i have to avoid you. this isn't about anyone who influences me but it's just that my conscience tells me so. to avoid you. i can't say this to your face because i don't want to hurt you but i'm hinting you.. from now.. goodnight, bye

new friends

sometimes in life you have to accept what really comes and what goes. so what really came today was, new friends. though the company may make me feel a little awkward, they are really quite funny. it has been quite a long time since i laughed like i did just now. after all a laughter is healthy indeed. i've been putting on long sleeves/t-shirts and jeans with my usual sandals these few days because the weather just makes me want to slack. don't want to look overdressed. my phone is malfunctioning. i can't receive texts and calls and i can't send texts or make calls either. weird is.. the connection bar is full. what else is the problem? is starhub having difficulties now? don't know. have a good friday night and bye

early bird

look at me.. i look fat.. sigh. it's okay ah since now fat is the sex. okay just kidding. so it's almost 12am and i think i should go to bed after i've done blogging. so as usual i've stopped watching ratapan anak tiri and shall continue tomorrow. i know i've watched it but that drama keeps me alive. i mean, i would rate beyond the bar rating if i would. continuing episode 10 part 1 tomorrow. LOL what a cliche! my stepfather said the same thing he said months ago. i mean it's like dejavu because i've heard it and when he came out, i knew he would say the same thing. not a coincidence *whistle* 5 minutes to 12am i'm counting down every minute i wanna be an early bird! i don't want to publish this post at 12am cause i want to save tomorrow for blogging. life has been hectic! i know i said that yesterday but i still can't accept the fact yet! bummer. i'll be packed next week so all i will do when i blog next week is brag, brag and brag about the fact that i'm attending the stupid lame ass shitty training that i'm not looking forward to. sometimes holidays can be a bitch. what a luck, goodnight and bye

destroyed & constructed

life has been so so hectic right now. time is moving at a fast pace that i can't even blink for once. if i blink, i'll miss out everything in life. ceh. you get what i mean right? not literally saying i can't blink for once. it's more of a descriptive way here that i'm trying to put.. the situation now. as you can see my old blogger template has been removed. i've got nothing to blog now seriously now that i don't have any ideas. guess i'll take a break from all the excessive pressure. bye

rubbed raw..

it's almost midnight and i can't sleep :( blogging silently so that my stepfather won't give me a nag for using the laptop until this hour. but i think he'll close one eye ah cause i'm already promoted and that's enough to grant his wish for his lovely stepdaughter hehe. i had a great wednesday although it was.. k nevermind. bought a pair of vans hehe at last but didn't get to buy the one i wanted :( i've checked 3 outlets and they only have big sizes left. so i bought some kind of other design. nice also ah. then went to fox and tried some jeans. fox sells jeans that are so comfy! i bought one. very comfy. so the last thing i got for myself was this shirt from topshop. topshop has a lot of cute shirts that catches my eye :( k next time i go again ah. today is such a lovely day...

not to mention my day gets even better everyday. love it. i can't DTR for now but i hope i will DTR when i finally think it is time to DTR? i don't know how i should start this but it's just unbelievable but at the same time i get this comfy feeling after considering to contact him again. it's just so unbelievable la but it is real. definitely not a dream and not gonna be a dream i hope. i hope this time nothing goes wrong like it used to for the first time. plus i know it was my fault we went our separate ways. i'm not gonna have any doubts this time round and just hope nothing's gonna go wrong. is this love? i don't know what is this but like i said i can't DTR for now. i can't even D my own feelings. and i don't even know what he feels. i'm gonna relax and go with whatever is taking me right into this relationship. but i just hope this time round it wasn't like it used to be. okay am i like supposed to blog pasal ni? o.O or did he meant something else? haha k no idea but just read k (^__^) don't know what to say already.. TIA *krik krik*

ok have a good night guys. sigh. have to wait for twitter to let me tweet again cause i am always tweeting a lot. tweet banyak pun tweet macam tak naik je hais :( what is this. not fair. gonna go to sleep soon. have to wake up early but it's okay cause it will be my last day of school woohoo so happy! and i'm promoted to sec 3 express FYI. so delighted! can't wait to receive my results tomorrow! have a good night. i hope it rains heavily ah. nights *hugs and kisses* xx

don't die on me..

okay i have no idea what to blog about. i can't tweet either. have to wait for a couple of minutes or hours so that i can enjoy tweeting again. hmm.. okay so how is this tweetdeck thing functioning? i don't understand.. still need a couple of time to get along with this thing. goodnight!

uncomfortable.

i feel so so sick right now. blocked nose and bad sore throat.

super bad. you know the feeling when you're so sick,

you can't remember the feeling of being so well and comfortable.

all you feel is uncomfortable.

your head feels heavy, every second you swallow, your throat burns.

wish i can get well soon. sigh. i fall sick at the wrong time :(

hallelujah

i think my stepbrother has some mental disorders. he's like... crazy. i don't know why but the situation at home is super hectic. i hate it, really. i wish i can have a home of my own. have some peace. wish i was legal to buy a home of my own. i hate babies when they are crying. honestly i'm not that all goody-goody. i hate the sound of babies crying. i wonder how will i grow up and become a mother. well i wish i can become a mother to cats instead of babies. LOL okay i'm saying it figuratively BTW! sigh.. sometimes i feel that my classmates are faking themselves. like they don't like my company. sometimes i'm left out, sometimes i'm in the picture. get it? sometimes they don't wait for me, sometimes they want me to be around them because i have something. so it's their gain. get it, right? cause the signs that they are faking/don't like my company... is like.. it's so obvious. or is it just me? or is it like that? i mean, friends don't leave friends wherever they are, right? IDK. okay the weather is nice. i should tuck in already. night. xoxo

typical singaporeans mwahaha!

hi guys! so my english paper 2 was a killer. the unseen passage was a freaking moron i swear because i totally do not understand the story. ok i do understand but some of it. i don't understand what the teacher freaking wrote on the blackboard and i don't understand why would she be unhappy on the first day of being a teacher at a new school and unhappy that one of her student is literate. weird O.O i can't wait for holidays! i wanna dye my hair like hayley williams! mwehehehe big fan! hopefully there's no typical singaporean who would think oh she looks like 'minah' or blabla whatever their negative comment is. i like hayley's hair and i'm gonna dye it like hers. ulalaaaa can't wait for holidays! ok guys, signing off with a picture of me no make up so cute right! kidding! have a good day ahead! tc xoxo

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experiments.

trying out to snap 'beautiful' pictures using my fujifilm. looks like i'm not satisfied sometimes. BTW, i'm at home and i have to study since my english exam is on monday. well good luck for upcoming exams guys! bye, xoxo

endless love.

how does it feel like to get rejected? miserable. yes. utterly miserable. firstly, blaming myself for putting on hopes thinking he would feel the same towards me. secondly, blaming him for not warning me he has someone in mind already and he yet shows me the affection. i am indeed, crippled by love. it's ironic that i should be actually crying right now but i'm doing the opposite, smiling. guess i am happy for him. no matter what happens, i still want to be friends. though i know it's hard to face it myself. sigh. goodnight guys, have a good sleep guys, xoxo

sleepy.

i'll do a quick update. it's 4.30am in the morning. i'm going to sleep right after uploading photos. i had a breath-taking saturday with the tamp boys. they are a real laughter. well i can say now i'm in a dilemma. so i like this guy but i'm not brave. i'm not giving hints either. nor do i wanna tell his close friends. oh now i'm confused! it's okay. the important thing is that i've had fun on my saturday. it doesn't really happen but it did. so yay! i'm gonna sit at home today and complete my homework! my schedule is getting tighter. (LOL) have a good day ahead guys! bye xoxo

uneasy..

so how's my fujifilm dslr camera working? bad? good? okay? hmm.. time to explore more. goodnight guys! have a good sleep, xoxo

updates.

hi guys.

so this week has been quite tough for me. well not really that tough but it's just that i have been busy. tight schedule. i'm excited to tell you guys that i'm getting a dslr. (stoked) it's the nikon D3100. well i just wanted to update you guys what has been happening for this few days. BTW there was a streaming talk early in the morning just now and i swear i feel like i want to freak out.. it's like, the feeling when you want to shout out loud badly. it's like all my fears are hiding in me but at the same time it just wants to escape this little red heart. maybe some of you guys think streaming isn't important but it is because whatever i decide to take up next year will determine what course i can opt when i want to go for some poly. like if i want to take some course like engineering or something like that, i need a good math result. which i think consists of elementary math and additonal math. i can't cope with elementary math and what if i take additional math? EW. my algebra concept isn't strong. well most of the courses that i have seen in the poly magazine, it shows that you need to pass either elementary or additional math. well that sounds like a killer to me. well good luck. but if i wanna take up like mass communication, tourism & resorts management, early psychology thingy or blabla i guess i need to get a good score for my english or POA? IDK. well i thought of choosing combination 2 which consists of combined science and there's art (i love art), POA, literature and some other sub. well to be honest i love literature because there's a lot of reading to do and i love reading and mainly because i want to read romeo and juliet. everyone knows romeo and juliet but do you know what's the depth of the story? that is why taking up lit is definitely what i am interested in. even if i can take pure science, (maybe) i doubt i would be taking that. like pure chem pure physics. omg that's the killer. time for me to prepare for the worst. IDK why but i'm panicking on the fact that my EOY is coming near and my confidence isn't here. i need a boost, really

goodnight

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"it will be my lullaby," i said..

river flows in you..

sigh.. i won't try to resize my photos again. such a bummer -_- all the pictures uploaded to my photobucket account was supposed to be resized (bigger) so that i can put it @ my blog but the sizing was extra big! i mean it's big you guys can even see every detail of me.. i think? btw.. i won't try to win his heart anymore either. hoping isn't a choice for me. you know.. when you're all hoping too much but then all the hopes are like going to be crushed by a big boulder and crushed into diamond-hard rubble. well, all of us hope, but do not hope for the same things.. just a short update. everything has been so rough (which is not good) but the weather has been lovely (which is good). i'm getting busier and busier each day with my assignments and tasks given out and i have no time to hang out or catch a movie. *loud sigh* lets all hope things are going to be smooth.

i've got lots to catch up and i can't promise to do another update soon but i will try to keep time by my side if i can. goodnight, xoxo

"2 more chapters to finish breaking dawn"

short updates.

i am so shagged and i'll do a proper update real soon okay. have a good day ahead xoxo

sigh

i've got loads of errands running up for me today so.. sigh.. i can't go out. aiming to complete my homework by today so i can relax for the whole week. by the way i've got ideas on what to blog about. well since i don't really do videos of myself and video guru's have this thing called video tags. well....... i'm gonna do blogger tags. haha! okay so i've gotten 3 questions from a friend of mine. so the questions are....

1. do you prefer hanging out with guys or girls?

my answer was.. guys. why guys? cause sometimes girls like to gossip and they are quite annoying. well some girls are just super annoying which is unquestionably true. or they are either so bitchy or they are superficial about things they see. well beautiful people get it better. and people like beautiful people. if they are not, they are either dumb or ugly. i guess? okay it's not like i don't gossip but sometimes i see no reason why i should start gossip or hating or underestimating or humiliating someone. honestly, i hate talking bad about someone because i've realized i am no different than others. it's not like i don't talk bad about someone but not anymore. i think it's just weird when i start scolding myself when i bad mouth about someone or have thoughts that are just not good? i reflect. yes as a human i reflect on whatever i say and if necessarily, i scold myself for being a bad girl. HAHAHA what am i?

2. do guys or girls lie more?

i think that girls lie more? honestly i do lie sometimes but i don't do it anymore. i mean up till now. enough of lying. girls lie more because 1. they want freedom or 2. for the sake of their friends or 3. just for their ultimate good. plus a girl is somehow like a precious diamond to their parents and girls need more protection. for example a parent that controls their daughter won't possibly let their daughter wonder out late at night without their supervision so when girls want freedom, they lie. maybe they say they're having a slumber party at a girlfriend's house and there's supervision or something like that.. so i think that girls lie more because they want what they want or because it's for the sake of their friends. well for guys, i don't see why they have a reason to lie. i mean guys can protect themselves without supervision. they can even protect their own mother and therefore, they have more freedom than girls and they don't have to lie about where they are going or who are they with or what they are doing as long as they know how to supervise themselves. well but guys lie to their girlfriends maybe? hehe.

3. if i were to start a relationship, what type of guy will you look for?

this. question. is. so.typical. ok i hope i emphasized my words by putting fullstops. haha. well i want someone who is understanding. who doesn't right? i have a curfew and that curfew applies to me everyday. well if i'm out with my parents then there's nothing i call a curfew. i have to be home at 7pm sharp/on the dot and i think guys can never tolerate this type of girl? guys like girls that can go out late at night, right? i mean they'll be like, "ew this kid has a curfew. time to get back to momma" well idk. i like guys who cares for the environment and people. people who don't get it better. i want a guy who can see better than any other guy can. like i said people like people who look good and if you're not, you're either dumb or ugly but i think it's best to embrace the suck. i want someone who can support me in my life. like support in whatever i do. like maybe supporting me in my studies, my interests, my competitions and me. a guy that can accept my friends. no matter what their race is or how they look like and can accept me for at my worst and at my best. and lastly a guy who doesn't whine.

so that's the 3 questions. anyone who wants to do this blog tags please feel free to do it because i do not own it so it's open for all of you guys to do it. it would be great to see you guys doing blog tags so i can read it too. sharing is caring! have a great day ahead and don't be stucked at home like me doing all my homework by myself! bummer

short updates

i'll do a proper update soon. everything is not organized now. sucks to be me sometimes!

have a pleasant day ahead guys! xoxo

astonished much

i can say though that i'm astonished by the new layout by blogger, i'm still not used to the new layout :/ so how can i like undo this again? i mean i want blogger layout to look like the old blogger layout. oh besides it's my fault for clicking the 'try the new layout blablabla' bummer :( btw i have good news (benefits me) which i think may not benefit you guys. i've learnt how to thread my own eyebrows! yay. haha i bet some of you will be like 'oh this little girl has just known how to thread her own eyebrows. so last year' ceh. i'm anticipated to watch glee 3D (glee fan)! hmm got nothing to talk about really. i've been sticking around at home and i know i seldom update my blog these days but since i'm silenced (to boredom), i thought of blogging and so here i am. actually i don't want to stop talking but i feel like maybe what i want to talk about might either annoy you guys or maybe you guys just don't wanna read but please don't give up on me readers (err if i have one?). i actually wanna talk about vampires since i'm so fond of them but............................. crap much? haha. well gotta go. can't squeeze for more juice out from my brains. sucks to be in this situation really

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lucky day

my.fucking.cousin.is.being.a.fucking.pain.in.the.ass.now. fuck him till the core of the fucking earth. how can my grandfather fucking eat 2 packets of maggi curry? how is that even fucking possible? worst. all i asked for is one fucking packet of maggi curry and riyan still got the fucking guts to say "oh, atuk nak makan dua dua packet maggi curry" or shall i translate it as "oh, grandpa wants to eat both of the maggi curry" and i'm like wtf? O.o since when did my grandfather started becoming a maggi monster? today? yesterday? last week? 1 hour ago? stupid. seriously riyan, what are your fucking brains for? is it for you to store memories of your best moments in blackshot? oh i think so because you are one fucking irritating little kid that i would fucking beat the shit out of you! *controlling myself from anger* if there was nobody at home right now at this fucking hour i would have fucking smacked the shit out of you kid. lucky you. bitch.

and then my grandmother told riyan to order macdonald for himself and she's like, "ask your sister to order (call the macdonald delivery)" and i'm like wtf holy shit crap! seriously if you want to eat macdonald and you want to order it for yourself, you take the fucking initiative to call them yourself! don't try to put these little things on me just because i can answer all the questions a macdonald worker ask when you order food through the phone. you can jolly well suck your own dick (which you possibly can't) if you can't speak proper english just to order for yourself. emphasizing, YOURSELF. well, if you're going to let me order a meal for myself too then i might just volunteer myself to order for the both of us. emphasizing, US. so please order yourself if your intention is to order for you. like only you. stupid lil faggot. and stop giving that fucking super ugly face to my mum when she asks you a question cause i might just want to take the toilet bleach and pour it on your fucking fugly irritating face. seriously. i would kill to punch that pussy lil face

ok done expressing. cooling down in progress. enough of the whining or bragging. am i that mean? oh i don't think so. i think i am fighting equally for my rights and since that kid is rude well i can't let him pass the green line. he can suck his own dick (which he possibly can't) for like the second time -.- okkkkkkk... anyway i had a great day today. muz had given me his super cute motorola flipout. super stoked! lol i had the time of my life playing around with the phone and my excitement rised when i discovered i could get cute emoticons on my whatsapp. *peace* now the problem is the themes.. sigh. okay better get going. dedication to dota now. night guys! will update again when i feel like i have the time of my life (hahaha today's english is seriously a nightmare. fucker)

*please take strong note that i am not jealous because of food. i can get more than 1 meal if i possibly want to. it's just annoying how these little fuckers are behaving at home. hmm and babies are irritating when they cry. i like them but their crying is just annoying and unbearable

sick

i'm sick. hate this feeling seriously.. hmm
my nose is swollen on the inside. my pills are making me drowsy, oopsie.
i need to sleep. really-need-a-break, bye guys

Chingay 2011

Ne-Yo "Lie To Me"

lie

he can't be trusted. liar. that's what my mind is repeating now. the word lie
i miss iqah. i guess what she told me is true. stupid me. should have listened
just gonna wait for her to come back. there's a lot of sharing to do
i love you girl. come home quick, i miss you already
it's time to move on. there's a reason for moving on quickly. hmm..
nights, xoxo

bitch

aw i'm gonna miss iqah. she's leaving for malaysia tomorrow. bummer! it would be so different when i'm back after school. no LAN with her. no everything with her. what am i gonna do? :( seriously, WHAT AM I GONNA DO?

this is the fucking middle finger for a mother fucking anon bitch like you. you can kindly leave me and iqah alone puss. go get some things to do instead of being a crowned queen keyboard warrior. if only i know who you are hehehehe. ok bye

morning!

awake at this hour. hmm.. didn't get to sahur in the morning. bummer :(
it's okay.. insyAllah boleh. waiting for paris to wake up. waiting for mumin to call.
sticking around at home is boring especially when you have nothing to do!
or worst, no one to talk to. extra bummer. okay lets not whine like a baby.
have a good day, bye

broken promises

paris is so so adorable. though sometimes he makes me feel confused. waiting for mumin to call me. come on, call me right now :( i don't know what to update. hmm.. any ideas? ugh can't-blog-right-now. feeling very very disappointed right now. TGIF, have a good weekend

confused..

guess i've got nothing to do. re-editing my blog. again and again and again.....
waiting for paris. he's taking his own sweet time. hmm.....
have a good night, xoxo

Mariah Carey - Hero

oh bummer

guess i'll have to start from scratch again. sigh. i've missed a lot on reading and it's time to be the bookworm me again. guess i'll cuddle up in my bed being a totally different person reading breaking dawn. it's so heartbreaking to hear that the movie is nc16. very, very heartbreaking. lets hope it's just false rumours. i really wanna watch breaking dawn. team twilight. though harry potter is a good movie also. maybe 5% of harry potter. hehe. okay it's school tomorrow. feels like it's monday but the fun fact is that it's thursday. ah great life. alright gtg, having a nice conversation with mr paris, nights xx

happy birthday sg muah muah xx

happy birthday singapore! the town area was as usual, packed like sardines. haha. at least i was in the car enjoying the air conditioner. we missed the fireworks by minutes? idk but we saw it. i had to put my head out because i can't be probably asking my uncle to stop the car and stand in the middle of the road to look at the fireworks right? that would be beast! ceh. after the stupid congestion, my uncle drove to ecp and we grabbed burger king for dinner and sat at some stupid place where it is dark and i totally can't see where are my veggies and the nachos and the beef and my burger was big. i mean i have to open my mouth like momma hippo to eat it. muahahaha okay i need to complete my 4 fucking assignments and then blackshot. hais hais this is what i call a disaster holiday because i still need to complete 4 assignments. i should have done it earlier like on fri or sat. ohh bummer i'm a piece of shit

happy national day

happy national day guys! hope you teenagers had fun celebrating national day in school! don't act like you're so grown up already ok? i bet 30% of your inner personality or maybe 20% of it still has the kiddo personality in you. ceh! so firstly just wanna talk about some stupid shit which is the marching for the ndp parade just now. i was damn nervous. you know, the adrenaline rush. and big fucking shout out to the students in aes who laughed. fuck you like a million times. or maybe forever. ok maybe i shouldn't be angry on people like you guys because when you laugh about something or making judgements about the marching just now (which is bad), you're just putting your good deeds on a golden plate my dear. which means you're giving it away right? idk. somebody made a status according to that

like seriously aes students don't respect. and worst! all the teachers could do was to ''shhs'' or ''sheesh'' the students. omg, ni ah cikgu makan gaji buta. stupid! all you can do is that?! yo mama so fugly that she........ ok ok stop. like seriously even mr keh the principle don't give a fuck about it. puas hati tak payah march -.- at least respect ah. aes students, fuck you. oh fuck myself also muahahahahahaha

national day celebration is the bomb because it is the bomb. ok not really the bomb ah. only 10%. 90% of it is like a total dick ah. so now i'm home and i'm going to play blackshot as usual. training for dota today cancelled because of blackshot. hangover. told muz to teach me dota before playing blackshot but then when we got into the room and started the game, the ethos was different, making us not want to leave blackshot and move on to dota. well but i really must try dota and audition and some shit. a gamer must try different kinds of games. ok not must ah but maybe a gamer should try different kinds of games. ahhhh idk k bye