breaking dawn

so basically, breaking dawn was beyond amazing. i would rate it.. 11/10. i'm gonna watch it again. i just can't get enough of it, i swear. the situation lately sucks. though it has been a hectic week for me, i'm trying to cope with the situation i am facing now. this.. sucks, a lot. i might say i have been crippled by love and i mean it figuratively okay. i know this isn't an alarming news but yeah.. it's a thing where girls usually get. i mean it's normal to get this crippled by love disease or breakdown or heartache disease. though i know i'm suffering from heartbreaks, i know i can pull this off. i know i'll be fine. okay lets get over and done with it. i'm trying to keep myself busy these days so that i can eventually forget muhd azree.

i didn't enjoy my day today. i don't know why but everytime my brain tells me to go out and have fun, my heart tells me to pull over and stay at home. heart over mind. i really don't know what is stopping me these days. maybe the weather, maybe the people. maybe the money or maybe my total laziness. i really don't know what's the real answer to it but it can be any reason that i can find. so i sat at home today, fried some instant prata (well actually only 1 piece) and ate it with sugar because there's no gravy. it's so pathetic i mean there's no food at home but thank God some instant prata became the savior (savior not from danger or harm but from hunger and lack of cooking knowledge. hehe not really lah :p). so i had the most 'bopian' situation in my life just now. how i wish i can spend the whole day in happiness not from all this stuff. idk what stuff basically.

okay i'll update if i have the time again. it sucks now that lam sold the camera that we had put our hearts and money in it to get that freaking dslr and now he sold it! fuck him fuck it fuck everything. now i'm left with my normal canon camera that will always make me look like i'm freaking ugly but now i really don't care because whatever happens, happens.. though deep in my heart i know things are going out of the way, i always tell myself to always.. smile