ARCHITECTS

architects was fucking awesome!

felt like i was in seventh heaven. oh God. i miss them already.

contained my excitement since the day i got my hands on the tix and yesterday night...

it was one of the best nights of my life.

they are so fucking good live. though the venue was small...

we managed to pull it through. they were fucking awesome!

anyway this week has been one hell of a week for me. feeling so tired already.

there's a lot for me to take in. gahh. goodnight

why?

why is it whenever there are functions held by my dad's side i won't be informed. did they forget me? or if they don't bother informing me? even celebrating my dad's birthday (not supposed to celebrate yet), they don't inform. am i supposed to check on them everyday and update myself for what's coming up? how sad. i feel left out... dad's birthday is in 3 days time and i've got things planned in my head but then when i see the photos of the advanced celebration i feel like i've wasted my life away. i know i can still do something for him but it would mean only the both of us. sounds cheesy but i really want to see my dad smile and celebrate his birthday the way that he will remember what i've done for him for all his life. i want him to say, in the future, "kakak, do you remember the times when you got me a cake for my birthday and you went to surprise me blablabla...." yeah i would love to hear that in the future. maybe i can still pull off something. make a plan. i've made plans for hadi's birthday too and i hope i can succeed and surprise and make him happy and... the same thing i want to hear from hadi which is "hey, do you remember when you blablabla..." yeah you guys get it. it's my first time doing something for a very dear friend and i hope i can make someone smile and show them how much they mean something to me. cheesy? haha.

3 more days to architects!!!!! (stoked as fuck)

3 more days to my dad's official a-year-older birthday!

2 more days to my mum's official a-year-old birthday!

this week's gonna be tight!

p/s: not good at paragraphing. sorry!

happiness?

i don't know whether i'm happy, or not. i guess i haven't figured it out yet...

STOKED AS FUCKED

FUCKING STOKED FOR ARCHITECTS! 8 MORE FUCKING DAYS!!!!! X.X

(containing my excitement)

Close Your Eyes - Digging Graves

"come stand with me, i'll never walk alone. my words are not enough, i'll love the unloved"

selamat hari raya!

no idea what's up with the photos but anyway i would like to wish you guys selamat hari raya!!

just a quick one here because i feel very exhausted and my eyes are starting to get real sleepy x.x

it's the 2nd day of raya already and i hope another good day awaits you guys!

don't forget to collect lots of money ok! hehe that's all for now.

p/s: sorry for the majority of my photos. vain mode on.

taufik tahir

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAUFIK TAHIR! (i wish i knew your full name. damnnn)

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i hope a wonderful amazing great day awaits you on this special day and i hope that you get to celebrate your birthday with your loved ones and how i wish i get to see you happy and all. sadly, i can't and all i can do is wish you right now at this moment. i'll definitely get you something because i want to get you a birthday present. heh. hopefully i'll get to see you soon too!

once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAUFIK TAHIR!!!!!

p/s: i suck at this wishing thing and i've forgotten your age again. sorry :(

cliche

my world is crumbling around me into a sterile pile of ashes, all my hopes and dreams cruelly dashed... again

part of me died

a part of me died inside.

i swear school was damn tiring today. fuck the ndp training. it was beyond my limit. okay maybe not but my tiring level was boosting out like fireworks. a part of me died inside. this is gonna be the last i hope and then next year, no more of this damn shit. it's the fasting month and we're expected to stand under the sun with our uniforms made of some weird and uncomfortable material. a lot is expected of us. come on man, give us a break.

'My First Hardcore Song' by 8 yr old Juliet OFFICIAL

happy fasting

just finished my sahur and i'm definitely going back to bed

hope you guys have a good day and happy fasting!

xoxo

grieving sunday

my weekend wasn't really satisfying. really didn't expect it would turn out to be so terrible. hmm... me and faiz=not in good terms. feels like we're losing each other already. like we're gonna call it quits anytime from now. i know it's not a really big deal cause we aren't together yet. or is it a big deal? i don't know. i don't wanna know either... wish we could save this relationship but i feel like there's nothing left anymore. my heart feels so empty now... i'm really, puzzled. haiya i don't know what to feel right now. gonna call it a night already so have a good sunday everyone

05 - Architects - An Open Letter To Myself

i wish that i could find the words to save this

Linkin Park 12 - Powerless (Living Things) (Lyrics)

my current favourite because it's the soundtrack for the movie abraham lincoln, vampire hunter. giving all my thumbs up to this song and the movie. the movie was legit! it's officially my favourite movie for this year.

RHD

racial harmony day celebration this year with my classmates was awesome! didn't expect that it would be this cheerful. my classmates are very supporting and almost everyone wore traditional costumes :) we exchanged our traditional costumes with the different races so that we could get more points for the class. i had a great time celebrating racial harmony day with my classmates. i guess it was the best racial harmony day celebration ever! hopefully it would be as cheerful as this years' racial harmony day celebration next year. a lot of good things happened today in school and it was great. i'll never forget this day even until i leave the school. anyway, tomorrow is the first day of the fasting month. gonna continue watching bleach in awhile so have a good friday ya'll!

girls day out

shoes... they leave shoe-prints and marks that you have stepped somewhere, leaving a memory. ceh i should cut that out. i had a great saturday with these two girls, huda and sarah. my saturday wasn't really good actually because i had a tiff with faiz. but after that things got better and i'm glad it did. can't bear to lose him. can't bear to lose anyone that means a lot to me anymore.

we had strictly pancakes for late lunch and early dinner. it didn't made us "kenyang." in fact, it makes it "muak." i think rice is still the best. it makes me full. haha. so after dining at strictly pancakes, we walked to lido to chill over there... at the mccafe. it rained today but it was still humid, to me. had a good time with the both of them there and we talked about boys, etc. it's been so long since i've had something to talk about to girls and not boys.

a photo of us in the train...

overall it was good and i'm hoping to go out with them again. really looking forward for girls outing because i hardly go out with girls and this is really fun as girls usually have things in common. well at least they have some things in common la. it's been awhile since i last blogged. i didn't really have anything much to talk about lately. nevertheless, i'll still keep updating if i have anything to update. plus i want to keep it as a memory so when i grow up i'll be reading my posts again about my 'childhood.' haha. goodnight.

reflections reflections.

i've been thinking of moving on to wordpress but i think i'm better off here. or maybe i should move to wordpress... okay maybe not, maybe yes. what a fuss, even little things like this can make me think so hard. anyway things going around me has been fine only that i've been falling out of love instead of in. it seems like i can't be bothered anymore after countless times of trying to be able to be in a steady relationship. well i guess it can't be helped and i think it's still best for me to be single and learn as much as i can from heartbreaks, making it a lesson for me to learn about independence, trust and comfort... and more??

it's already the middle of June and i haven't really done anything productive. this is the holidays but then again i want a productive holiday and at the same time having the time of my life. the only thing i recall doing almost everyday is.. going out, watch bleach at home and spending most of my time tweeting. how is that even productive? hmm... i don't even remember about school assignments and i've neglected my books and studying although it's the holidays now. how weird.. because i should be focusing on my weaker subjects now that i'm having holidays and i have a lot of time to do so each and every day..

some things are distracting my mind but girls.. they always have all sorts of problems. be it with a boy, be it with a friend, be it with anything that is called a problem. probably the main problem is unstable relationships. i've been having unstable relationships with a guy and it's so hard to picture myself happily with another boy after a year or so of not having a companion. guy companion. i just hope things will go smoothly for me the next few days or so.. leaving me a good impression on a whole new experience. as for now, i'm just going to stay calm and do as much as i can to make everyday of my life a satisfaction for me to indulge in. i've always wanted to do things for a reason...

goodnight xoxo

A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover

vain

toughest week

this week is probably one of the most toughest week..

next week too.. so my paper starts tomorrow.

just a short update before i start on my revision.

wow. revision at the last minute.. whats new you tell me

typical sunday

typical sunday.. what i always do every weekend besides from going out. just a short update because i have to start on my art prep work. looks like shit's coming through my way. goodnight guys have a good day

touch of love

it's really nice to know that some people wants to stay with you and watch you grow to become a young lady/young man. it's so rare to hear this kind of thing. however, i hope that's what it really is. it'd be nice to have someone staying with you watching you grow in life. anyway, school has been really rough for me and i've got a lot of things to catch up with. schedule has been so tight with a lot of school activities. things are starting to change and i really don't know what's coming up for me. i have no idea whether it's gonna be a good or a bad thing that things are starting to change. well, whatever the odds are, lets just hope it'll be fine enough for me.. goodnight

rejuvenate-in-progress

lately i have been occupied almost everyday with school activities and i've been doing my homework. well that's a good news but i am still procrastinating on doing my physics homework. what is wrong with me? guess i need a break. but actually break time is over it's now time to start this brain working. looks like this is gonna be a new thing that i have to get used to. well not a new thing but something i have to pick up again to become a habit

corrupted

i really don't know what has gotten into me these few days..

i can't take it any longer if it happens everyday.

it's like mourning over someone's death every single night when it isn't.

i feel like i won't have any bf anymore because i am corrupted.

that's what i think of myself..

and i don't wanna stay this way. it feels like there's a boulder of curse on me..

i don't know what to do and if i know what to do, i don't know how i'm gonna do it.

i am generally losing hope on everything

Fixed 2 - Juliet Elliott Fixed Gear London Charge Bikes, tricks HD

my inspiration :') she inspires me to keep riding

sunday cruising

had a really great sunday cruising with hadi though there were problems. looking forward to cruise with him again because clearly nobody else will cruise with me in the morning. goodnight everyone