rubbed raw..

it's almost midnight and i can't sleep :( blogging silently so that my stepfather won't give me a nag for using the laptop until this hour. but i think he'll close one eye ah cause i'm already promoted and that's enough to grant his wish for his lovely stepdaughter hehe. i had a great wednesday although it was.. k nevermind. bought a pair of vans hehe at last but didn't get to buy the one i wanted :( i've checked 3 outlets and they only have big sizes left. so i bought some kind of other design. nice also ah. then went to fox and tried some jeans. fox sells jeans that are so comfy! i bought one. very comfy. so the last thing i got for myself was this shirt from topshop. topshop has a lot of cute shirts that catches my eye :( k next time i go again ah. today is such a lovely day...

not to mention my day gets even better everyday. love it. i can't DTR for now but i hope i will DTR when i finally think it is time to DTR? i don't know how i should start this but it's just unbelievable but at the same time i get this comfy feeling after considering to contact him again. it's just so unbelievable la but it is real. definitely not a dream and not gonna be a dream i hope. i hope this time nothing goes wrong like it used to for the first time. plus i know it was my fault we went our separate ways. i'm not gonna have any doubts this time round and just hope nothing's gonna go wrong. is this love? i don't know what is this but like i said i can't DTR for now. i can't even D my own feelings. and i don't even know what he feels. i'm gonna relax and go with whatever is taking me right into this relationship. but i just hope this time round it wasn't like it used to be. okay am i like supposed to blog pasal ni? o.O or did he meant something else? haha k no idea but just read k (^__^) don't know what to say already.. TIA *krik krik*

ok have a good night guys. sigh. have to wait for twitter to let me tweet again cause i am always tweeting a lot. tweet banyak pun tweet macam tak naik je hais :( what is this. not fair. gonna go to sleep soon. have to wake up early but it's okay cause it will be my last day of school woohoo so happy! and i'm promoted to sec 3 express FYI. so delighted! can't wait to receive my results tomorrow! have a good night. i hope it rains heavily ah. nights *hugs and kisses* xx

don't die on me..

okay i have no idea what to blog about. i can't tweet either. have to wait for a couple of minutes or hours so that i can enjoy tweeting again. hmm.. okay so how is this tweetdeck thing functioning? i don't understand.. still need a couple of time to get along with this thing. goodnight!

uncomfortable.

i feel so so sick right now. blocked nose and bad sore throat.

super bad. you know the feeling when you're so sick,

you can't remember the feeling of being so well and comfortable.

all you feel is uncomfortable.

your head feels heavy, every second you swallow, your throat burns.

wish i can get well soon. sigh. i fall sick at the wrong time :(

hallelujah

i think my stepbrother has some mental disorders. he's like... crazy. i don't know why but the situation at home is super hectic. i hate it, really. i wish i can have a home of my own. have some peace. wish i was legal to buy a home of my own. i hate babies when they are crying. honestly i'm not that all goody-goody. i hate the sound of babies crying. i wonder how will i grow up and become a mother. well i wish i can become a mother to cats instead of babies. LOL okay i'm saying it figuratively BTW! sigh.. sometimes i feel that my classmates are faking themselves. like they don't like my company. sometimes i'm left out, sometimes i'm in the picture. get it? sometimes they don't wait for me, sometimes they want me to be around them because i have something. so it's their gain. get it, right? cause the signs that they are faking/don't like my company... is like.. it's so obvious. or is it just me? or is it like that? i mean, friends don't leave friends wherever they are, right? IDK. okay the weather is nice. i should tuck in already. night. xoxo

typical singaporeans mwahaha!

hi guys! so my english paper 2 was a killer. the unseen passage was a freaking moron i swear because i totally do not understand the story. ok i do understand but some of it. i don't understand what the teacher freaking wrote on the blackboard and i don't understand why would she be unhappy on the first day of being a teacher at a new school and unhappy that one of her student is literate. weird O.O i can't wait for holidays! i wanna dye my hair like hayley williams! mwehehehe big fan! hopefully there's no typical singaporean who would think oh she looks like 'minah' or blabla whatever their negative comment is. i like hayley's hair and i'm gonna dye it like hers. ulalaaaa can't wait for holidays! ok guys, signing off with a picture of me no make up so cute right! kidding! have a good day ahead! tc xoxo

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experiments.

trying out to snap 'beautiful' pictures using my fujifilm. looks like i'm not satisfied sometimes. BTW, i'm at home and i have to study since my english exam is on monday. well good luck for upcoming exams guys! bye, xoxo