wow.

look at my face! isn't it chubby? like you feel you want to pinch my cheeks so hard? no kidding lah. wow. i am glad to say that i have not been in an fucking open relationship or neither am i contacting with anyone else. i'm so proud of myself for the first time. even if i miss him badly, i tell myself.. big girls don't cry. and i know i can be strong. fuck yeah i can. so, beat it :b

my guyfriends and babes at school have been making me laugh a lot a lot recently and i'm glad i'm bubbly as can be right now. rather than being so emo shity because it's not good? haha. it's not being emo lah. only sad. haha. see, i suck at wearing tudung. aiyak. k never mind.

oh yes oh yes oh yes! today is my fuck yeah officially first day at my new cca, redcross. save people not kill people ok. alhamdulilah i got to cope with my new cca. but the not o-kay thing is that.. my school has this morning assembly where the 2 of the maybe girl guide girls, npcc or whatever student have to give commands. which is for example, 'sedia' and 'senang diri.' and i was in a bad luck situation because i and bea was asked to do this at the basketball court next week. monday to friday. i know i suck! fml k. so i will have to be the one talking during pledge taking and guess what i have a lot of footdrills to do. fuck i hate this fuck fuck fuck. first time already kena tembak how to escape ah like this? fml fml fml fml fml fml fml.

but never mind. endure lah. and guess what?! on the 11 february next month, it will be the cross country event. awesome! and it falls on my birthday! so maybe this year, i would aim to be in the top 10 again ok? last year was 6th. this year, better please. omg omg omg so nervous. i would have to go for __________. hah. hopefully, this year, i would get in the top 10 ok. it's gonna be a great birthday gift. one of the great birthday gift. ok i'm done updating. thank God tomorrow is thursday. ok i want to update my private blog. bye. want to be invited? tell me so.