bound to you

do you like it straight or curly better huh? i like it in both ways muahaha but mostly curly wurly hehe. i watched burlesque just now with anyum and elle aw at last i get to meet my best best best girl friend. my best friend my love my everything. she's my number one bestfriend and no one can replace her position. oh i'm so stucked with bound to you by christina when she sang at the burlesque movie, it gives me chill shrills on the back of my spine because that one strong lady got a fucking powerful voice so jealous of her and she looks so pretty in the movie i like the eyeliner and i should try it out.

omg my hair is like shit lor but conditioner saved my life and oh why my mum always like to spent her time in the washroom i don't understand sia come on go out lah your son(which is my so naughty step brother hor) is home already. grr.

oh btw thanks leann for the advance birthday gift she bought for me at cotton on a dress and ohhh me like it a lot and we bought the same dress which is the dress that she bought for me. get it? oh and now i like to use heels hahaha i don't care lor what guys gonna think if they want dope girls go die because i think it's no use looking so dope and no guys want you ahah fucking fail lor.

so i've decided to go for a new look=heels! and i like it so much but that doesn't mean i'm gonna dumb all my shoes like osiris and stuff. the look will go on it's just that i want to be like something new + abit girly=heels! haha yeah. i want to be like christina can? burlesque. i want to dance like that and and when i watched the movie just now, my body feel like want to move to the routine and i keep focusing more on the routine.

you guys must go watch it lor! and the marcus guy that gave christina the shiny heels, omg i wish singapore has that and somebody so gentlemen can give me *cute kitty face* haha pussy cat sia. okok enough my post so long lor. and part of it is singlish. ahaha ftw?! oO

burlesque is 11 out of 10 man! and all my thumbs go up up up. i'm trying to emphasize on how great the movie is by the thumbs go up up up and the ratings so better go watch it because it's freaking awesomzxzxzxzxz to the maximumzxzxzxz! (i hope the emphasize work out haha)

oh fuck i want more heels! i want forever 21 heels and etc. more heels please! or platforms! aiyayaaaaa i want it so badly i'm so obsessed. somebody buy for me on my birthday k take note 11 february ah my birthday! haha kidding lah. no need to buy for me one lah haha! see i so good right kekeke.

boys.

hi guys okay is there even anyone reading? haha. see, my tagboard so quiet and i don't even care! *surprised* anyway i find this question at formspring fun even though it doesn't and jin asked me that. wakakakakakaka! he talked about durians he doesn't like durians cause it's smelly and he asked if i like durians or not. what i said was...........................................................................

yes i like it because it's delicious like a g6 haha wtf k lame lah ya i know it's smelly but delicious geesh.

oh i like when i type a sentence without commas or i type like without any commas or exclamation marks or yada yada yada k i'm so bored i should get someone(no one maybe) to talk on the phone with me the hot dude is not here aiyak okok doesn't mean i say hot dude i like him k it's just that he's hot(totally!) ok he's not with abang firhan so bye i want to otp and i like fucking sleepy so i tashaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan!

like a g6

please.

one of the reasons why i can't forget him because i dreamed of him. and i did yesterday. i dreamed of me in his arms again because i was shivering from the cold and that i was sleepy and he was willing to let me be in his arms again, caressing me.. treating me like we used to be.. and what i knew next was, i woke up in the middle of the night at 3am as to the relieved feeling that it was only just a dream. sigh..

i know that it will never happen again. i can cry out loud. the dream, it was beautiful but it wasn't real. it didn't felt real like my other dreams, different. but i can feel his touch and me in his arms.. it was weird but it was beautiful. but i know it's only a dream and it will never happen again. i will never get him back because my love was irrevocable. never.

now, it gets me weaker whenever i think back again of the dream. but, maybe one day, maybe, miracles will happen. and i believe in miracles.

sharawrawrawr pinky.

aw thanks baba you made my day awesome. now i perceive the meaning of true friendship. love you baba and bea truckloads. had so much fun with baba kia and bea at school today. why baba kia? because they found out baba was a 'small cake' and that i was random so i put the kia behind haha wtf?! so baba kia=small cake kia. omg so gangster-ish + cute-ish hahahahaha fail!

and oh say hi to holga 135BC=pinky! it's so pink-ish i like it! pink wallet, pink holga, pink blusher alalalaaaa so pink! i hope my photo booth can be fixed ok because i want it to be alive!! see, i'm trying to emphasize on the 'alive!!' and that's why i attempt to put '!!' and i bold it so that you will know how much i want it to be 'alive!!' haha.

k danny vomit ew you so smelly la 2 year old kid(step brother) and you still got the guts to step on my back wah so pain you little boy! k bye.

moving on.

oh that's me. so fugly fuck fuck! k it's time to move on forget about him.
he will be happy moving on with her. k dah bye heart pain. aduh aduh!
i tried my best, i really did.

wrong side.

nenek's attempt to throw the crumpled tissue into the bin was an epic failure because it landed onto the chair that i was sitting on. fail. i toil in my maths homework just now and oh look at my curly wurly hair. nice? i love it and even my chingay friends love it till atika asked me to do it for her before chingay's actual performance. yay wow i succeeded in following the girl in the youtube video tutorial on how to curl my hair and that one looks like miley cyrus kan cuma tak panjang gila. kan kan kan? baik cakap kalau tak i bring parang slash. chey tak lah! i'm just trying to emphasize on how curly my hair looks like hehe!

check out my chingay costume at facebook look like flower look like tinkerbell. so cute right? i know right! no lah. kidding only. ok i'm waiting for my stepdad to come back home and then we will go out to i d k where and fcuk tomorrow i got school wow it sucks to the max. i got only sunday to rest?!?! i had chingay full dress rehearsal yesterday and it was tiring but so beautiful. i like how the luminous lights shine on us and make the lime green leaf on our costume look like it's glowing. k dah.

alright i wanna blog in my private blog and yeah. wah i miss tron legacy i think i should have a movie marathon and watch tron online. yey i like it pls! and i need novels at harry's! i'm gonna finish breaking dawn's novel. awesome.

get loose.

it's such a dissapointment that my photo booth polaroid camera can't be used. of course! firstly, it's already "berkarat" and secondly, i have no idea who bought it for me because i have the polaroid camera since i was a toddler. well, it sucks to be me. and when i want a new one, they say i have my old one. yo, which part of "berkarat" don't you understand? get me a new one! my birthday is coming. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr )=

it's a sad thing that my cousins don't give me birthday presents but i am always the one giving presents. and i'm so frustrated. why did someone give me a polaroid camera when i was a toddler?! and how do they expect me to use that?! tak ke bodoh nama nye itu? grr.

i didn't shout. yabedi yabedo! i did pledge and same goes for tomorrow. anyway, omg pause! haha. umi says i'm the one that asked for the polaroid camera omg wtf sia yaya?! why did you asked it when you were a baby? you should ask it now! idiot right! aiyak see now "berkarat" already. tsk.

oh yes, i need to.........................................................

• learn how to curl my hair-big curls. (youtube)
• buy hot curling cream for my hair before i curl it.
• modify on the chingay's costume. (i'll get the costume tomorrow)
• buy cute platform heels.
• get dresses, new cheap cheap outfits.
• update my make-up bag.
  

alright that's what i need to do. grr. ok i think i'm done. i gotta do my stuffs and then do my homework. fml. grr.

back to the start.

i've been stuffing myself with fruits and yoghurt. healthy food. hehe. i'll be receiving the chingay costumes tomorrow and i hope you're not ugly. haha. oh well, i shouldn't get really all serious in blog entries. anyway, i have to be the one shouting tomorrow because ms wong says it's good if i try out something new. which is-shouting and not doing the pledge taking. and i'm eating my green apple now. after which, i will eat yoghurt. yum.

like the saying goes, an apple a day keeps the doctor away.

fml. after a tiring day just now because i had redcross, which was filled with shouts and laughter and footdrills, i went home and i slept inside the bus. the thing was, i woke up and i felt something "crawling" on my hand. and to my fucking surpise, it was a small cockroach. the brownish orange type. i didn't shout but........ i wriggled my hands. ew. fuck. tsk. and that was the story. phobia. ew, i still got a lot to bear with school. fml. k bye.

intense.

despite doing the intensive maths question, i successfully completed it!

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSAH!

don't look back.

wow k i like my eyelashes k not i love my eyelashes mua ha ha har!
look at my hair. like shit-ty shit right? sucks. i miss my highlighted hair. tsk.
my hair quality like fuck now not nice lah i want to cry lah can? )=
see below my hair better right? tsk. omg my weight ah remain like fuck. cannot tell.
must go for jogs. tsk. but lucky body maintain only weight problem must go run.
so far the pledge taking is ok lah tomorrow must do training in charge. tsk.

wah syarararararaaaaa i miss track and field trainings see i love my legs like what.

aw aw aw i miss those times )= please come back k leg. i want the leg the leg!

must go running more kkkk alahai. k my pictures now like shit like that.

i guess i must start camwhore better this time round. ok muah! i want to bath.

bye.

i'm missing the leg. the leg syararaaaraaaaaaaaaaa.

short update.

just a short update today. the weather is awesome to tuck in for bed!

• i am hungry right now.
• i only got 5.5 for beep test?! ew. level 5 stage 5. sucks!
• i need to do training for running more.
• 99.9% never gonna be in top 10 for this year's cross country.
• i don't care!
• the quote he typed in facebook was excellent!
• you have the deformities. bad.
• i'm going to read up on breaking dawn after this.
• fuck yeah i am good in the maths inverse proportion. *shake butt*
• it's raining! wtf.
• i still have to do pledge taking. but they say i sound cute. aw. k shaddap.
• i am fucking hungry lah.
• can't wait for chingay's rehearsal. hah!
• i wonder how the costume looks like. please don't be ugly.
• i don't feel like modifying it!
• where the fuck can i get costumes?! tell me!
• tucking in for bed soon.
• i am fucking hungry. like a vamp.
• i am hungry like 10000000000000x!
• k bye.

i can transfom ya.

• fml because i am always stucked in maths.
• i tend to give up easily )'= honestly.
• i talk about him all over again, pretending like i don't care.
• i change my mood easily. which is-bad.
• i saw him at chingay rehearsal but i didn't looked at his direction. phew!
• everything went so so wrong.
• lastly, dream on bitch. )'=

i tend to give up on maths and start doing other subjects. it feels so suck-ish. i have to do the pledge taking from monday to friday start-tomorrow. ass. i forgot the karangan deskriptif format for my 1st time. i have school tomorrow. syarararaaaaaaaaa sucks! i feel very cold like 16 degree when the fan oscil and the air touches my skin. even cartoons got kissing. haha wtf? chingay rehearsals has been a exhaustion for me. regrets? not really. but overall, chingay is quite the awesomeness. that's where i let all my problems, doubts and worries fly high high like there's no gravity. i'm on cloud nine whenever i'm at chingay rehearsals. some things that are awesome is..........................

chingay actual day falls on 11 and 12 feb. cross country falls on 11 feb. i still can go for both. fuck yeah awesome! and.... the awesome part is, both events fall on my 14th birthday this year. extravaganza! anyway, i'm head over heels for masks. masquerade masks. when the dance ensemble girls went to italy (don't count me in cause i'm out) and bought masks. beautiful! so, i bought masks for myself. ok wth. fml fml fml fml fml fml fml. have to do pledge taking. fml 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000x k. bye.

a mask of gold hides all deformities.

in less than a month...

in less than a month, it will be 2011's cross country on my birthday. i have to _____. so yeah. hah. omg i heard nyayi's voice and he just came here to give riyan his monthly allowance. and uncle rab, riyan's dad was in the car and guess what, he didn't even visit riyan. sometimes, i pity him though. riyan seldom meets uncle rab.. and ibu, riyan's mum never took him back. be strong ok riyan. tgif! (tomorrow.) ok i wonder why this blogskin, when i caps lock a letter or a word, it won't turn out big. but i like the font! oh, looks like the plan to stay at woodlands for the moment is so not going to happen. i love thursday. thanks for making my day sunshines! :')

the guys in my class keep making jokes even if people find it lame and childish? but it's funny when you concentrate on their reactions and what they say, and it made me laugh like nobody's business. maths lesson is alhamdulilah ok. i love the fact that day by day, the date is passing by. it's a blink now that it's the 13th of january 2011 right? but i hate the fact that next week, i would need to give commands. shit. yeah, the command thing i mentioned. me and bea will do it. she will shout while i will do the pledge taking. awfulness. tsk tsk tsk.

and there was this random sec 1 girl that asked me if i was airil's ex and yes i did said yes i was very spontaneous when she asked me. haha. weirdness. i gotta check it out! x_x ok, i have a feeling a strong feeling i won't make it for this year's cross country. i mean, there are a lot of the chinese girls that are so good at running. gah! and i even got 6th last year. what if i jumped to a conclusion that i would get double? 12th! misery. tsk tsk tsk. that means, more trainings. hmm, honestly saying, i miss track and field trainings with senior kak rina.g and rina.a and yeah. it seems like everything is different now. way-way-way different.

alright i shall start _______ tomorrow maybe insya'allah please don't make me give up please don't make me loose faith in myself please don't let me loose the strength. oh fuck there's dnt tomorrow fml. i will be with my dnt group mkpl(s). haha. if you know what it means. mak kau punya laki(s). hahahaha wtf. i don't even know why we name it that. even fadzli's group choose ntuc/old chang cute. haha wtf wtf wtf. but it's okay, i love mkpl(s). bye.

wow.

look at my face! isn't it chubby? like you feel you want to pinch my cheeks so hard? no kidding lah. wow. i am glad to say that i have not been in an fucking open relationship or neither am i contacting with anyone else. i'm so proud of myself for the first time. even if i miss him badly, i tell myself.. big girls don't cry. and i know i can be strong. fuck yeah i can. so, beat it :b

my guyfriends and babes at school have been making me laugh a lot a lot recently and i'm glad i'm bubbly as can be right now. rather than being so emo shity because it's not good? haha. it's not being emo lah. only sad. haha. see, i suck at wearing tudung. aiyak. k never mind.

oh yes oh yes oh yes! today is my fuck yeah officially first day at my new cca, redcross. save people not kill people ok. alhamdulilah i got to cope with my new cca. but the not o-kay thing is that.. my school has this morning assembly where the 2 of the maybe girl guide girls, npcc or whatever student have to give commands. which is for example, 'sedia' and 'senang diri.' and i was in a bad luck situation because i and bea was asked to do this at the basketball court next week. monday to friday. i know i suck! fml k. so i will have to be the one talking during pledge taking and guess what i have a lot of footdrills to do. fuck i hate this fuck fuck fuck. first time already kena tembak how to escape ah like this? fml fml fml fml fml fml fml.

but never mind. endure lah. and guess what?! on the 11 february next month, it will be the cross country event. awesome! and it falls on my birthday! so maybe this year, i would aim to be in the top 10 again ok? last year was 6th. this year, better please. omg omg omg so nervous. i would have to go for __________. hah. hopefully, this year, i would get in the top 10 ok. it's gonna be a great birthday gift. one of the great birthday gift. ok i'm done updating. thank God tomorrow is thursday. ok i want to update my private blog. bye. want to be invited? tell me so.

back off idiot.

tsk, please do not attempt to bring me down ok idiot. what do you want actually? you come into my formspring and starts to give dirty insultments. what is wrong with you? fine, i give up. you win ok? but watch your mouth if you want to ever call me a betina or sundal that sells body at geylang or what. what the fuck are you trying to implement on me? gosh. you can say every bit by bit of insultments but i know you won't bring me down! fine. you can say i look ugly or what but do not ever try to put in my parents or even trying to accuse me of some things that are not true! i am so going to report you if you fail to satisfy me you idiot! come on! why do you hate me? for? you're simply jealous right? or not? why would you hate me for nothing? tell me. stupid.

school has been a drastic exhaustion for me.

my birthday is 1 month far away yay yeeha can't wait. hopefully, i would receive a blackberry bold phone from aunty nora ok? and money from my family and i want a new g-shock omg omg so awesome i'm asking for a new g-shock! ahhhhh! lol. and i want a holga camera. i saw at jurong point. cheap! you can get it less than $100 wah awesome. hah! but does anyone knows other places that sells nicer holga camera? you know, like those polaroid cameras. yeah. tell me about it ok.


yeeha the weather is nice for me to tuck in for bed. maths has been a shit lah. omg omg omg Z.Z after blogging, i would go sleep like zzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz. yey i have not eaten yet. success! i want to loose weight so yeah. uhuh. hah. ok i'm so bored somebody call me please because eiin is not here anymore aiyayaa macam shit lah so not awesome. be prepared because i think i will start redcross tomorrow? ah gugu gaga. k i'm done bye.

lethargy.

i think my school uniform is awesome. it's just me not making it awesome. idiot.

firhan is playing some shooting game. fuck yeah he's killing the fucking nation. chey no lah.

he's killing some stupid army runnning and hiding around with guns. it's call of duty. hah.

alright, fuck. i didn't get the damn blackberry but thanks mama for the free idea. hah.

hope i gets it. hah. i told aunty nora i had an ungotten wish and my birthday is next month.

yay! 1 month 1 more days to my birthday. fuck yeah awesome. alright, so i asked aunty nora..

for a blackberry bold. but before that she says she will try to try to get what i want lah.

and i want blackberry bold k. hah. crossfingers mahu extra lebih this time. lol! school is superb.

the fucking hole in my heart is healing. slowly. se-low-ly. my friends make me feel happy.

and very protected. thanks to marija my bitch. i love you. atikah wasn't around just now. aiyak.

not superb at all. i can say very well mother tounge sucks. my middle finger for that k.

stepdad fetched me after school and we went to bedok. grabbed mac'd and some strawberries.

awesome. after this, we're going to the hospital to visit my atuk tiri. hmm. omg omg omg!

something awesome. a news. but it's too long lah. if i'm really damn excited then i tell k.

oh fuck, i need to finish my geography homework. sucks ah seriously. woohoo there's history!

tomorrow. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz bye.

maybe out, maybe not.

k before i start anyone want to read my private blog tell me but i must know who are you first k and follow me on tumblr all the links is at link ok ok ok ok lup you all.

all of a sudden, i miss erika dwi natasha. that cute little girl in the photo. that was when we went to universal studios. mua ha ha ha. i realised my blog is fucking boring right? no wonder all the people go away. aiya, this people, come and go. never mind k. i like my blog this way. k so i am fucking excited but i should not be because i'm afraid later i won't get the blackberry. wah see, patience is the key to succes. haha! insya'allah i will get the blackberry. syaaban, please exchange handphones k handsome boy. haha i angkat ah. tsk tsk tsk. today, i'm listening to holla at me. chris brown and tyga. wah korang dua hot but i still want awal ashaari cause he so fly so hot. hahaha! maybe i'm going to woodlands. kak natasha's 21st birthday today. yeah, my cousin. maybe i go because i can see abah's side and it's kak natasha's birthday and we have not met for one year? two years? i can't remember. hah. ok so now i'm waiting for my cousin ayie's reply about the mother fucking phone. give me ok.

love you guys so many ok please give me the phone because i want it i want it i want it i want it. reply me fast bitch!

same shit.

hi so today i did went out. i went to 313 somerset with aunt, uncle and their baby daughter. we window shopped and went to hmv to buy dvd's to watch at home. sadly i didn't buy any dvd because umi says i shouldn't get anything. fuck. i wanted house bunny. only $14.95. aiyak. never mind. then we bought ice cream. yummy. after that, walked to dominos pizza and had dinner there. yummy. as usual, i got myself hawaiian. marvelous. then we went home. i've been eating a lot k i should not eat a lot k. i have mass run on tuesday so make use of it. my birthday is so near yes i am so fucking excited. but actually, nothing awesome is gonna happen. aiyaya. k i need to fucking complete my homework. ah bitch. oh i heard syaaban found a blackberry. yo dude, lets swap handphone ok you take my nokia express music and i take the blackberry. fuck you if you don't want to give me the blackberry k. haha kidding. give me please ok because i want it and i give you my nokia ok? ok ok ok ok? crossfingers mahu lebih k yaya. they found the phone at scape. wah jialat. kasih i ok syaaban? hah lol. k bye. i fucking need to finish my homework. bye.

Stronger.

hi i guess i am a bad planner? bad time manager. sorry for not updating my blog anyway. i'm a good girl today because i sit at home. i think? umi is out at work. stepdad too. only me, mak ngah, gg and faiqah. this is fucking boring. went to the changi general hospital yesterday to visit my atuk tiri cause he was warded tapi i sendiri tak pasti he sakit apa kerana i tak tanya umi i kenapa. hah. but i visited him dan pertama kali i kiss dekat dahi dia. i tengok dia i macam nak nangis tapi i tahan kerana i strong girl. hahahahaha wtf. big girls don't cry lah shit. lately new people menjelma dalam hidup i and si dia sudah dah tak ada lagi. eiin lah. dia sudah dah tak ada lagi. i dah end everything i tahu k i yang jahat tapi i ada reasons i k. yay i da 2 months and 9 days single. this 30th jan i 3 month. yay tak sabar. k i am very very hungry right now k. aiyak.

my nenek like shit pasal she macam so hangat that ada cat masuk rumah i. taik habis. i sayang cat ok nenek so please stop being so harsh. lack of apathy. jialat. k i hope got food yang sedap because i am so hungry right now. maybe i'm not going hospital today pasal i malas. k bye.

i'll update when i'm bored or when i'm free.