Umi.

* Cry

Umi, me or stepdad? Am i such a bad daughter for the three of you?

Yes, i know i was rude. I know i was rebellious. But it wasn't intentionally from my heart.

I couldn't take it and i have to let it out.

Like nenek says.. "Kau dengan umi same aje.. Selalu pendam dalam hati dan tak nak bilang."

Yes, i'm weak. Very weak. I know i shouldn't have rebelled..

But i couldn't hang on it. My heart is drowned full of lies and stuffs. I can't do this.

So, just now.. Was the moment i rebelled my own umi.. The one that gave birth to me.

I went home late and i got scolding from stepdad. My curfew time was already over.

I was late for home about 18 mins. I remembered. And i got scolding.

Just because of 18 mins. I went inside the room and tears were flowing.

Umi looked at me with her stepdad's side face. Well, i know i losed. I know i couldn't fight.

Umi was always on stepdad's side.

I told umi only abah understands me. Only abah understand being late for just 18 mins.

At least.. I'm not a daughter who goes around finding faults.. Creating problems..

Or even rebelled you more than you could have thought.

I respect every time you gave me and i did my best to cope with the time given.

I know i've been doing this mistake a couple of times.. But understand.

You didn't even appreciate the fact that i was rushing like a mad girl.

Umi, you aren't fair. You were never like this until the day you met stepdad.

All you could do to me is lie.. You lied to me every single thing. You covered up.

You even made me accept him as my stepdad regardless of who he was.

Remember? Remember you were the one who wasn't strong for your love.

You couldn't fight for your right when you were with abah.

What you did was let that stepdad enter your life even he knows you are married.

Even has a daughter.. The one you always pampered.

Does that stepdad guy have a heart? Wow! So deeply in love till he wants you?

He should have gave you advise to be strong at work but then.. He stepped into you and love you.

Is he stupid? Or something is wrong with him?

I regret having a bad mouth stepdad. All he could do was call out abah's name.

All he could shout to me was..

"Senang kau tinggal dengan BAPAK kau lah!"

Excuse me? Bapak kau? It's raizal. Not bapak kau. Does he have a heart?

Mind him will he? He shouted that at my face? Wow! Amazing.

What if he was abah right now? And all umi could do is, shut her mouth.

Can you fight for me at least once? You never will right?

Cause you're just too scared to lose this husband of yours huh?!

All you could do is listen to what he says and demands. What?! What am i then?

I am the victim here.

You are making me move here and there just because of a custody.

You really want me to be transferred to abah's hand and will never meet your daughter again?

I'm really sure you will never ever meet me again and will regret!

Cause once i go.. I'm sure i'm not gonna return and see all of you. Deal? Think umi.

Now, you only love danny and dinara. You know what? I'm jealous.

Very jealous. I'm your first daughter. Your love fades.

And know what? I'm stupid i let you marry stepdad. Stupid me.

Everyday keeps me stressing. Right now, tok abas is already "nazak."

Tok abas.. Mama's father. Well, may you rest well in the other world tok.

Umi, i hope you realise what you did. I hope you can be more fair this time.

Soon, it's gonna be mother's day and i don't know what's happening.

Umi.