Thanks.

"You guys could at least called me using a public phone."

I thought about that for a second. But thinking about it again, it won't happen right?

Yes, it definitely won't happen that you guys will inform me.

No news, no calls, no text. NOTHING.

I've never felt the pain before. Was it so hard to inform me?

I, was waiting for the calls and text but none did i receive from you guys.

You guys had fun. Catching, pictures, laughters and etc.

And me? Suffering, waiting and wondering what's next eh.

I thought you guys could be a little help for me. To just inform me.

It's been 5 days he didn't called or text. And i got strong evidence somewhere.

Never mind, what's done can't be undone.

It's a little to late to regret dear. Cause it's hard to catch me falling down.

Again.

I wasn't in any mood just now when i last checked entot's blog.

I'm not angry, just heartbroken. But VERY heartbroken i suppose.

I then was asked to get ready cause we want to go out.

It was a stupid plan cause step-dad is currently at dubai right now working.

And who the hell drives? Easy, umi.

I was proud of her for the fact she can park and drive normally again.

Cause she had lost one of her eye sight. I repeat, eye sight, not eye.

Very proud of her. Everything turned out, BAD.

Today was the worst day i could have faced.

Firstly, when i was getting ready, i got condemned.

Who else? Nenek and atok. I'm not just gonna stand there and watch myself.

Getting condemned.

What i did was, i went out of the room and i shouted.

That i didn't want to go out today. Umi was calming me down.

And i was swearing atok and nenek because of them condemning me.

Serve them right. I don't fucking care. I won't let them condemn me.

Yaya doesn't stand there and watch herself gets condemned.

She's just gonna pop-the-angry-balloon-out-of-her.

And i did.

So i was forced to go out. Yes i did. But....

1.Bad impression.

2.Moody bitch.

3.Fucking ego.

4.Swearing people. Or i should say, family.

Well, who the hell cares?! I showed these four morals just now.

My inner bad attitude.

Danny was making a big fuss about his stupid-baa-baa-black-sheep.

In the iPhone 4. And i heck care -.-''

So i didn't care and i just swore the hell out of him. Although he's 1 year old.

Stupid enough.

Mak ngah was nagging about me not helping danny.

Who cares?! I don't! So i shouted in her face. IN HER FACE.

Then this happened again and again. But some others too.

When i went to kak ayu's house, i slept.

I was damn tired. I didn't eat a lot today. And i was moody. And i keep sleeping.

This happened because of what i saw on entot's blog.

I was heartbroken like i said. And all this affected me.

And that happened. My bad attitude, my so-moody-expression.

And i blame PDG for that. You know who you guys are right.

So this happened cause of that. I was restless, useless, stupid, tired, moody.

I don't know what happened to me but well, this happened today.

I don't want it to happen again i hope.

I can live without you. I know i can. I know myself well.