Cousins?

Faking smile.. Crying in.. Destroyed.. Heartbroken.. Plain.

I can't accept what's happening around me right now. I'm heartbroken.

I loved my own cousin? And my own cousin fell for me deeply.

And it's my ben10..

Ben10! The one that loves me for whoever i was..

The ben10 that really cares..

Everything that was him.. Was perfect.. But now, look at us.

We are like a two tiny creature being seperated.

Yes, ben10 is my cousin. We have stopped putting high hopes on ourselves..

Our dreams was to last till eternity no matter what and get married..

Lame enough? I guess so..

But now, our dreams are being crushed by a big boulder.

Yes.. And congratulations to anyone hating on us.. Cause it's over.

O-V-E-R.

I gotta move and he gotta move..

I'll never let him go.. But now.. I have to.. I'm speechless.

I can't even concentrate.. I'm forcing myself to move. To get rid of my past.

As i'm typing all this down.. My tears keep flowing down..

Every drip of it gives me memories..

I'll still love you as my cousin and yes.. I do.

' Hidup ini susah kita nak Duga.. Kadang kala kita rasa Dekat dengan Seseorang itu. Tapi sebenarnya Jauh. Walaupun kita dapat Genggam Tangan dia belum tentu Hati dia kita dapat Selami. Mungkin kita boleh buat dia Ketawa tapi tidak tahu apa makna Senyumnya. Bila dia Menangis, kita sangka kita dapat Memujuknya. Kehadiran kita Langsung Tak Disenangi. Rencah dunia, kita takkan tahu siapa Kawan dan siapa Lawan sehingga sampai saat kita Jatuh Tersungkur. Adakah tangan Dihulurkan atau kita Ditinggalkan? '

I'll translate in english but sorry if it's bad.

' Life is hard for us to wonder. Sometimes we feel near to someone but actually it's far. Even tough we get to hold their hands tightly, we don't know the heart we can discover. Maybe we can make them smile but we wouldn't know the meaning of the smile. When we make them cry, we realise that we can comfort them. Our appearence is automatically uncomfortable. World collapse, we don't know who is our friend and who is our fight until we fall down. Will a hand be given out to help or left behind? '

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' Andai esok nafasku terhenti, ingatilah detik terakhir dari ini.. Andai esok nadiku mati, maafkanlah kesalahanku dari ini.. Hanya satu yang perlu kau tahu, aku gembira mengenalimu. '

I'll translate in english but sorry if it's bad.

' If tomorrow my breathe stops, remember the last moment of this.. If tomorrow my beat ends, forgive my sins for this.. Only one thing that i want you to know, i'm happy i got to know you. '


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All this are from an, best bud. He gave me this..

Well, i am really down right now.. It's all over.. Well, i gotta move on.

Concentrate yaya..

I got no mood at all right now..

All i know just now is.. I went to changi beach for a barbeque..

Family and i saw Riyanee and some people..

I then discovered ben10.. Was my cousin. I can't hide no more.

My shelter's crushed..

Like what they say.. ' You can run, but you can't hide. '

I will accept this by all means.. Even tough i can't.

Well, i went to Amyystarr house just now to watch KudeKepang training.

I didn't got the time to try out gamelan.

I only chatted with my dearest cousin and hang out with them.

The boys at the training made me laugh when we went back up to Amyy's house.

I eat.. Cause ayah and ibu cooked the food.

Shall i say Amyy's parents.

Then i sat and listened to obek's/atok talks.

About the KudeKepang thing. Well, i'm not in KudeKepang.

But i just wanted to listen and do some participating. That's all.

I miss my dearest cousin, AmyyStarr right now.

Well, i can't talk anymore. I'm too down. Bye. Goodnight.

Eh biatch..

Sape`sape terase sorry lah sangat eh.

Kau pikir aku tak tau eh? Kau mulot apehal beb?

Mintak kene rodok ngan beros jamban pe? Kite pathetic rabak?

Eh oooooh! Oops.. Come on lah.

Dalam situation gini kau cakap gitu mcm kat de. Bahlol eh kau?

Kite sedare, beh apesal seh? Ape hal beb?

Dalah, yang sudah dah sudahlah.

Yang kau da apesal seh? Pathetic rabak la kite pathetic rabak kan.

Kau je yang tak pathetic rabak nak mampos!

Sorry eh kat sape`sape yang tak pathetic rabak. Kimakkkkk! Tak perlu seh.

Beh, da dapat tau pastu lagi msg de. Menyebok ah kau!

Jage kau peh mataey sudahlah gerl. Keh?

Lu step mane nye besau lah. Alamak! Aku tau lah umor kau dah cukop masak.

So, prangai tolong cukop masak jugak eh.

Mulot kau kan mintak kene rodok ngan kepale babi lah syg.

Sebok ah ngan ben10/sdare aku! Tepi lah!

Jage kau peh babydegel keh? Stupid stupid stupid!

Dah tau situation haprak ni mcm kau bnyak nyetnyot lah sister.

Kpale babi dalam mulot kau pon nice lah eh.

Dasar minahrep!

Niey lah minah`minah zaman skg.

Sebok je nak tau hal org.

Dah ade org bilang da cukop bagos. Takyah nk kepokia lah kan.

Kite pathetic rabak peh! Kau sorg tak pathetic rabak nk mampos!

Aku adek sdare de beh kenape? Da kenape? Irritating lah kau bitch.

Jage boydegel kau tuh. Nanti lari cm babi hutan susah.

Kite baru tau pe kite cousins. Beh?

Kay bye. Muah3!

Nanti senang`senang aku buat kau famous eh.

Mintak kene rodok ngan kpale babi lah mulot kau.

Ah, sape`sape dah bace kan. Tak puas hati? Ape lagi?

Mule ah hate tag korg. Mepek! Terase? Lu punye pasal la whye!

MINAH! Bluek ;PP