tank top

he got (well it was printed but idk how he managed to do this by himself) me a kellin quinn tank top! a photo of kellin and his name argh i am utterly stoked and speechless. i love it, no doubts. goodnight everyone! xx

stop pretending

ergh this bloody stupid boy is trying to act like everything's cool.

but i know deep inside his bloody brain his bloody heart he's fucking lying.

please boys.. stop pretending for once.

stop making it so difficult for me...

this isn't a competition so stop competing.

i'm not choosing any mr bachelor here anyway.

argh monday just fucking sucks. goodnight

please.

please don't ruin my happiness. please don't make things hard for me.

lethargic friday.

i really don't know if i should be sad or disappointed or tired right now.

i really feel like crying because of this resentful feeling.

but i hold my tears because i don't want everyone to see.

i'm such a cry baby.

i am currently in a confusing state.

and i don't know whether i should jeopardize myself in this situation.

i am risking something..

and if i make the wrong choice, i'll regret.

stuck in a dilemma here and i am really confused.

sigh

shayi...

hi shayiful! hehehe.

status: single cutie pie.

wednesday

i particularly do not like wednesday

because wednesday is cca day

cca day=torturing

the only exciting part is eugene sir=mmdap

ok well not really but at least he's cool

so that's about my wednesday for this week

little black dress

reading one of 'a little black dress book'. this book is hell yeah interesting but i guess it makes gullible and low self-esteem girls like me put hopes. i mean it does apply to real life situations..

so this girl katrina, is a model.

she's humble and basically normal (what she thinks of herself)

i mean, she doesn't think she's beautiful..

compared to other incredibly beautiful models.

though i can visualize her i think she's beautiful. (very)

she's not rich and her model agency is sort of... fucked up?

she lives in a stuffy hotel with her model roommates. fucked up hotel too.

went to a bar and an incredibly good looking actor spent the night with her.

out of all the incredibly beautiful models in the bar..

he choose her.

how lucky is she. all the girls in the bar...

vying for this incredibly good looking actor with no imperfections.

get what i mean? why can't girls like this have a taste of love from this type of guys? i mean to add on what i've just said this katrina girl thinks this actor guy is just a player but this guy just keep whisking her off for parties and shopping, etc etc. and now... she's more than happy to be swept off her feet. see! it wouldn't hurt for an average looking girl (though i visualize her as someone distinctively beautiful) to get such an incredibly good looking gentlemen right? if only this happens in real life situations. (a very rare thing to happen) i just think books does really make you start putting on hopes. thinking someday you'll get a taste of what this katrina girl gets in her life

In Your Arms - Kina Grannis (Official Music Video)

just feel like sharing a super adorable video today instead of blogging.

i'm feeling very uncomfortable because of my cramps. bye guys!

XoXo

i'm so tired after a long day cycling to cck back and forth.

shall hit the sack soon. goodnight guys! have a good day! xoxo

fucked-in-the-head monday

i stoned like ice at the sight of my beaker breaking to pieces. shattering.

and from that instant, i knew my day wasn't going to go smoothly..

i really can't believe i'm starting to lose a lot in my life right now. almost everything.

and here i am reminiscing everything that we have had. i lost a very very special someone.

broken glasses.. broken relationships?