good luck

good luck fasting tomorrow! well apparently no one is reading but it's okay..

still, good luck! time to wash my face, pack my stuffs and go to bed.

nights

weirdo familio

i can't believe i heard my grandmother shouting because of soccer.
she's like madam desperado 'oh-come-on-win-singapore.'
but it's so cute though. it has been a tiring day for me and girlfriend, SD.
time to tuck in for bed TGIF it's friday tomorrow.
my two lovelies playing blackshot on their laptop each and me blogging.
night babies xx

much misses

i'm so down right now. missing riyan badly i can't even do things i like. home is so boring without that little kid. i wonder what is he doing, is he having fun or have he had his meal. i know i sound like i'm overreacting but only certain of my friends know why he is important to me and i know 3 days is no biggie to you guys but still.. sigh.. we are like twins and can't be separated. i hope he's having fun in camp. gonna plan lots of things for us to do when he gets back home from his camp. i want him to have a memorable camp for now. hope i can get a good night sleep. anyway i'm lucky SD girlfriend is here to accompany me almost everyday and it's almost everytime we spend our times together. fries and cheese was yummy over the weekend and i've uploaded some random and short videos of us. well that's all i'm just missing riyan right now and i want him home fast. my twin twin boy come home quick little kiddo xx

a day without rain

my friday was spent as organized with SD girlfriend. lucky us the weather was approval. hmm, at first it rained and then it stopped after school and then it became hot and after that i felt warm. only SD was feeling hot. anyway my step sister is crying. on and off, on and off. annoying little baby banana *grumble* i can't stand babies crying even how cute they are, hais hais. i've uploaded more photos on faceB and anyway no one is reading this hais hais so pathetic. okay i've got nothing to update, signing out. me velly sollee my dearlie (xoxo miss-so-boring signing out)

ending off with a random video. so weird in videos boo not videogenic enough

blue skies for today

happy racial harmony day guys! bet you guys had fun wearing traditional costumes in school (but not for me), as usual cause i'm a boring person so kudos for that. currently i'm stucked with the song titled skyscraper by demi. didn't really loved it when i first heard it but then when i hear it again, well it got stucked like an algae has grown on me (LOL what a description). anyway after school, lee ann had come over to my house and bugged me to accompany her ride the swings at lakepark. it was a brilliant idea though. we rested on the bench after that, talking about school, backstabbers, girls and boys. we even gazed at the blue sky and saw things like.. tiger, rabbit and human like shape that the clouds created. not a fan of gazing-at-the-sky but since i didn't had nothing to do, it was a superior idea. well, those pictures made up by the clouds are maybe just illusions. hmm, gonna gaze more only if the atmosphere is nice. goodnight

friends

straight topics goes with a straight post and complies with a straight face so here am i being straight not slanted. hahaha so hilarious right? ok not. so what am i trying to emphasize about today is about friends. (ceh talking as if somebody is reading) so why friends? because today in school something made me realize the typical cycle of a 'not true friend.' don't wanna be mean so don't wanna type it down and don't wanna share what i feel with anyone who's reading this. so a definition of a true friend....

1. a true friend sticks with you through the good and bad times. (by what i mean stick, is really stick like sticky glue. stick with you even when you take a stance.)

2. a true friend might say what you don't want to hear but a true friend won't stay mad.

3. a true friend looks from the inside out and doesn't judge by a glance. (by this, a true friend really appreciate the person whoever she is and never complains. acceptance.)

4. a true friend loves you for who you are not what you could be.

5. a true friend should be cherished because there are a few that exists.

6. a true friend? a friend to love with, play with, be with and stick with.

only your heart knows who is your true friends and who isn't. honestly now, my heart tells me i do not have a true friend and never will i find a true friend at this age. i may find a close friend but not a true one because friends sometimes do mistakes that they don't realize they did. i don't have true friends because they don't comply with the requirements of being a true friend. my true friend will be the special person in my life and i take my word that i will cherish my true friend because true friend is a friend i will never ever can find any other. maybe i will see my true friend in another 2 years or 3 years time? or maybe not. no matter what happens, always trust your heart and nobody else

friends

hunting down..

ah shits i left my chocolate melts in the car and now bapak has gone home brrr.

anyway school is fine, alhamdulilah. just a short update cause what i have in mind to update all went gone *poof* hais hais it's only monday today there's still 4 more days to go.

enduring in school......

ok so hardi and muzzy have been waiting for me to go online at blackshot.

so, gtg guys! xoxo.

embracing..

hi guys. i'm so sad. okay not really that sad but i just can't log in into my formspring so how am i going to know if i have questions or what. iPhone? yes that's the alternative but i don't know if the question was meant to be only for me or if the person pressed "ask your followers." oh i know i'm choosy right but the hell gives a damn? muahahaha so mean. ok wait let me try with internet explorer instead of google chrome. ahh i don't know what's the error but if i have to do a new one, that's the alternative i have then. anyway i'm so fond of brown colors now. for eyeshadow because it makes me look more elegant (not saying that i'm fucking beautiful) but it just makes me look more fierce in a woman way (?) and just elegant. har har har i'm not an expert lah i'm just giving an opinion O.o yeah...

anyway the motive of this picture is to show how my hair looks like but i failed. haha when i took this picture, i felt like my head wants to topple to the back because of the weight of my hair? idk. haha but yeah because i tied my hair in this bun that looks like a flower. ooooo hows that o.O hahaha! you guys can look for this girl called lilithmoon or lilithdarkmoon tutorials on how to do an elegant hair bun. this was the bun i did but then when i wanted to snap, i just couldn't see the bun flower here. oooo wtf i'm on lazy mode to type. but anyway since this photo is so fail, something about myself i caught here which is my jaw line. i'm so in love with my jaw line. wah so vain ah? haha vanity. lol! yeah i like my nose, jaw line and cheekbones. i know you guys will be like ah lame and whatever shit if anybody sees or read this* but i like it. mehehehe.

selfish.

didn't know he was selfish. thought the love was all equal. selfish boy.

oooo fond of red lipstick already. doesn't really look good on me. neh neh neh.

random.

ok this is a random video i'm trynna upload. so random ah. k bye.

it's been so long.

a warm welcome to myself because it has been weeks since i blog. well not that i don't want to fucking update my blog but mainly the reasons are..

1) i'm definitely having a problem- but who the fuck cares about what i'm facing right? right right right? yeah i know that very well but i think it would probably be the most uncoolest problem ever. okok i mean it isn't that critical ah.

2) i'm very busy- yes i'm fucking busy because of school. okay i'm not that fucking busy but i'm just busy and i don't have time to blog facebook eat bath shit drink. okok kidding. i'm just busy to switch on the laptop on weekdays.

3) i'm fucking sleepy- everyday after school ends, i'll go home with a grumpy mood and i'm like fucking exhausted so i will take a shower and then sleep and i wake up at night doing my homework. or vice versa. zz what a life here.

4) i have no readers- yes i have no readers :( maybe only 1 or maybe none at all! aiya my readers run away already but it's okay.. i'm blogging for my self enjoyment what and who gives a fuck. who who who?!?!

so look! i've decorated my phone. thanks to this awesome singaporean blogger, xiaxue who is such a generous woman. she shared to me her link on her guide to life on how to bling and tadaa, i've made myself this. well the reason i made this because..

1) company-i mean 'accompany me'. yeah this is to accompany me because i'm waiting for my blackberry bold in pink to arrive. yay! so lucky right. haiyak! yay i'm going to have pink crystals and pink stuffs and i can't wait for my pink blackberry! omg *screams*

you can see here that i was lazy and ignorant to be rotating the photo so please either tilt your head or tilt your laptop. muahaha i realized i didn't rotated it only after i've uploaded it. tui-pu-chi *sorry in chinese* lol! i know, so fail right. this is the book of zombies vs unicorns. why i borrowed it was because of the wording on the cover and the colorful colors on the cover of the book. the story isn't quite interesting but still, i gain something right! well i like unicorns. they compare zombies and unicorns. i prefer unicorns. so go go unicorns! though unicorns have this secret liking for zombies a bit, i still like unicorns neh ni neh ni pu pu. they are magical unlike zombies which are dead and disgusting cannibals. hahaha!

okay done! what a fast update. gonna play blackshot now. bye!